October 28, 2009

Then And Now

It's been two long years since...
  • I've worked full-time in my chosen profession
  • I've worried about work schedules and deadlines and software updates
  • I've made sure my legs were shaved on a regular basis
  • I've gotten a decent paycheck
  • I felt secure about my self-worth, work-wise
  • I didn't think constantly daily about the economy
  • I didn't search for a job daily
  • I had health insurance, and a primary care physician
  • I've had my hair highlighted (I've had one haircut, six months ago)
  • I didn't have to worry about having enough money to get through the month
  • I haven't felt constantly stressed and harried with work and home and The Boy pulling at me for my time
  • I often felt isolated, alone, lonely

Now?
  • I've pretty much given up the idea of another technical writing job (though a recruiter called yesterday...we'll see what happens there)
  • My legs meet a razor when the mood strikes, or when I am forced to dress like a respectable grownup (translation: sans jeans and hoodie)
  • I got my last unemployment check last week - but the Senate approved yet another extension today; the House passed theirs a week or so ago. A compromise is in the works. If things go well, I may be able to suck from the government teat for a couple more months receive additional extended benefits.
  • I am worried, yet relaxed (if that makes sense). Since I married The Mister, my burdens are at least half of what they were - I know that, together, we can get through anything that comes our way.
  • The Boy gets to spend more time with me (and now, more time with The Mister, since he got laid off at the end of August).
  • We've made do, we've provided what we need, but not always what we want
  • I realize I wasted lots of money and worried about things I couldn't change anyway
  • I am more grateful for what we have
  • I cook more, I bake more (and the waistline shows it)
  • I own ponytail holders and aprons - who'da thunk it?
  • I know I'm not alone in my struggles and insecurities - and likewise, I have people to share the good times with
I've learned that with all life's 'lemons' that have come my way, I can make some pretty sweet lemonade. I look forward to what may come next.

8 comments:

  1. Bitter or better? I believe you've chosen better.

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  2. I love your spin for the positive! :)

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  3. Sometimes it takes a lot of bad to see all the good

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  4. I'd like to raise a glass of your sweet lemonade in a toast to you, your resilience and your fortitude. Cheers!

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  5. I'm glad you've found the silver lining in your clouds!

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  6. Damn girl, you are sassy and spunky! LOVE IT! I'm not sure what it takes to be a "technical writer", but technically, your writing here is superb!

    Looking forward to following along!

    http://confessionsfromaworkingmom.blogspot.com/

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  7. If anyone could have some great excuses to have very sour icky lemondade, it would be you. It is a testament to your character that you've chosen to make sweet delicious lemonade! : )

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