This week's prompts:
2.) Tell us the story of your birth.
3.) How did you parents choose your name? What does it mean? What would you change your name to if you could?
4.) Describe a moment when you realized your mom was more than just a mom.
5.) Write a poem for your Mama.
I struggled with the prompts this week. My mom and I have always had a difficult relationship. As the only girl among four brothers, I was the official house drudge and the brunt of all her anger and frustration.
She bought me too many clothes, and expected me to be "on" for her friends and the neighbors. I often was found lacking, and suffered her wrath, both physically and verbally.
She did the best she could, but sometimes, that wasn't good enough.
Now she sits in a nursing home in AZ, struggling with first dementia, now Alzheimer's. After a recent illness, she had to learn how to walk again. She doesn't talk much now, so the profanity-laced phone calls have stopped.
I learned most of what NOT to do as a mother from her, and I am grateful for her teaching. It pains me a little when people say I look like her.
She is a big part of why I am the way I am, both good and bad. By the time I was 10, I had a written list (stored in a book) of things that I would NOT do or say if I ever became a mom...and I've stuck to that list with approximately 99% accuracy.
I went with prompt #5 - Write a poem to your mama.
Not Made to Order
With three sons at your side
You remembered from when you were a bride,
Of wanting a baby girl of your own
To dress up in finery, and the world would be shown
The object of your yearnings
Turned out to be a tomboy who'd be learning
To prefer kickball and bikes and all the rest,
And rejected all manners of fancy dress
When you told me you never liked
That girl that once rode that bike
I was not hurt; but was sad
And I knew that at least my dad
Now as dementia robs your mind
You don't remember those comments unkind
Your memory's now foggy and blurry
Too bad I don't have the luxury
Stop by Mama Kat's and check out all of the prompts that are far more loving and kind than mine!