Sorry. I'd like to keep this a low-key event.
Especially since I couldn't convince any merchants to create glossy ads to sell my favorite merchandise.
Two years ago today, I started The Ratio of Failures. For the most part, I wrote exactly what I wanted (unless the disclosure was going to cause severe marital discord, then I might weigh my words a bit more carefully)...except that one time...and that other time.
Never mind. I wrote stuff, and sometimes, it got me in trouble with The Mister.
I can handle his usual delusions - but delusions AND anger? More than I care to deal with.
I often suffer from a lack of follow-through. I am as surprised as anyone in my family that I am still blogging with regularity.
Blog comments give me instant gratification - and when a clean kitchen floor makes me feel validated like your loving and thoughtful comments do, I'll be scrubbing that vinyl with a toothbrush on a regular basis.
Just recently, I felt the sting of being violated online, when one of my blog posts was copied in its entirety to another site.
Without my permission.
Without cash changing hands.
I'm still trying to determine what I can do about this, as the poser poster is in Germany.
What I've Learned about Myself from Blogging
- Letting go of old hurts and secrets is freeing
- I always knew I could write silly/goofy/mildly humorous stuff, but I never once thought that I would be able to write heartfelt posts.
- I have a need to write - whether it's to vent, or to inform, to entertain or to make a connection with others. Thank you all for reading and commenting.
- The online friendships I've made through blogging has emboldened me to meet some bloggers in real life, and to put myself (and my written words) out there in my writing groups.
- I may not be as shy as I thought I was.
- I may have found a way to be snarky and yet positive at the same time. What fun that is for me!
- I never considered myself to be overly positive or encouraging - yet many of my comments belie my original beliefs about myself. Maybe I really am that nice, after all.
- Sharing The Boy's challenges and successes makes me feel a bit more hopeful about his future. I think I must have been hanging onto a thread of shame...but no more.
- Though I still write mainly for me, I can't help but be influenced by all the other blogs I read...sometimes, they inspire me to write a post with a particular blogger in mind - and then, from your comments, I discover that most of us can relate to the subject at hand.
- When I write a post that I think is the most hilarious thing I've ever written in my life? I'm the only one laughing. Invariably, that post gets the fewest comments.
- I'm sure that someday I will hang up my keyboard (and quit blogging), but not just yet. I still have a paragraph or two that needs to come out. I hope you're writing and reading along with me.